Embodying More of Ourselves

IMG_0857What a summer this has been. One more eclipse to go for our triple adventure to complete. Three has always been my number and I have been working with two other friends in a trinity formation to bring through and anchor the energies of the eclipses and yesterday’s Lion Gate.

The Lion’s Gate portal opened for us at the last eclipse as we sat in meditation. Two male lions presented themselves, one on either side of the gateway. One was the lion of the past, one of the future. We had to look both in the eyes. To pass through the past, we had to be free of all anger, resentments, non-forgiveness and attachment. Once allowed passage by him, I stood in front of the one holding the future and allowed my being to show its fearlessness about the future, knowing that I could create anything that I needed from here on out. A deep voice boomed out, ” She has gone through.” I heard it repeated three times as each of us walked through the gateway.

IMG_0970As we gathered for the actual 8-8 date, we set up altars, two of the three having been set up days before to hold the energies streaming in. We had seven crystal singing bowls, all different materials, platinum/charcoal, smoky quartz, moldavite, amethyst, apophyllite, topaz and aqua gold. We played the bowls, sat in a triangle formation and then dropped into meditation. We each had a vision come.

I saw the two male lions in front of me. They each roared and I felt its intensity flow through me. I laughed at this tactic and that laughter released them to come to me. They nuzzled me and I petted and played with them. I looked up to see a female lioness above me, lying across the top of the gateway. I had the fleeting thought, why are there not two, one for each male? She sent me the message, “I AM.” Her look penetrated my being in a way that made me feel that I was about to disintegrate. I was being called to embody all of me. I took some deep breaths, calling in more of myself with each one. I strived to stand in the force of her gaze. She then morphed into Mother Sekmet, the lion headed being of Egyptian times. She and I had worked together years ago when she called me to hold a more universal love. She had taught me the fierceness of the mother’s love that held truth above all. I was allowed to walk through the gateway and it later became clear that I was that feminine lion, her energy was my own.

I felt a circle of joy as so many beings joined hands as we danced freedom and love around the planet. There was a deep peace permeating our circles as the love flowed freely. It felt like the beginning of a new epoch for the earth and all upon her.

IMG_0977One of my friend’s vision was of our trinity which was overlayed with another set of three friends holding their trinity formation to create a six pointed star that spun. Another friend held the energy above the spinning star as a beam of light shot through the middle from the center of the cosmos deep into the earth and all of her beings. She also saw a male beloved sitting next to me, made up of starry substance. On my other side, sat his twin, only he was more etheric in form.

The amazing thing was that our visions were affirmations of our true nature. One saw me as a dandelion form, exploding stars like a dandelion releases its seeds. She saw the chemical formulas for salt and carbohydrates around me as building blocks I took in to create the starry substance. This confirmed a vision of years ago when I was told that I was a Johnny Appleseed character, seeding light on the planet and beyond. Also my recent diet of salt and sweet, chips and ice cream made more sense.

I saw one of the women as the heartbeat in the blackness of the cosmos. She shared that she was given the same image in 2012 and had hidden it in her heart all these years. Now it is time to live the knowing, to walk as that heartbeat in the world.

fullsizeoutput_12afAnother was shown a vision with her husband.  He is going through a very dark time as he faces changes which have unraveled who he thought he was. In the vision, he wanted to quit, and she told him of her promise to lead him through this part of the journey. She was holding a flame aloft in a narrow and dark cave, as she led him out to an opening. Their paths then diverged, his was a clear path up a mountainside. There were beings on both sides of the path, waiting to embrace and support him on his journey. She was led to a lake where she dove in and became the African water goddess, Yemaya. She swam in the waters of the world, ending in Hawaii swimming with the dolphins. This is in fact something she does each year and loves. The vision gave her courage for the opening to more of herself that had been presenting to her. Knowing she was to support her husband in this now time yet that she was also being called to embody more. It helped her open to non- attachment as to what that means for their relationship, trusting and honoring each of their paths.

My prince awaiting form.

My prince awaiting form.

A large crystal had been placed in a chair. As I past by the chair throughout the afternoon, I kept having this feeling of wanting to put my arms around a being that I felt there. When we were dismantling some of the altars and wrapping up the crystals, I voiced my feelings about this being.  One saw him as a huge being, beyond the masters we were familiar with. When the chair was empty, I was encouraged to sit in it. I dissolved into sobs that went on and on. This being was a dear brother from my home universe. Years ago, I had been told that I was the sole representative sent from my universe to the earth. At a particularly difficult time on my path, I was gifted a journey home to see my beloved family and be renewed by their support. The fact that the frequencies are such that this beautiful being could come through to support me, was an astounding gift. The love is of a frequency that I had never experienced on this earth. I melted in his embrace. He told me that he would be with me from now on, whenever I felt the need. He was preparing me to meet my beloved. I have known that I am to be in union with a man, felt he would come from the stars when the timing was right. Over the years, there have been preparations for this sacred marriage. It is now coming closer and this dear brother being and my beloved lapis skull, Leopold 111, are assisting me to be able to embody this love. I know that I am to form a union that will be a chalice of lovelight from which future creations will arise. A pillar of divine love, along with many more sacred unions that are about to come into fruition in order to assist the transition we are all in.

Who knew the work and effort it would take to hold more lovelight in our cells. I have dedicated myself to this path for years upon years. Now it is almost upon me. I feel strong, ready, enlivened. My body has spasms of anxiety as the light stretches her. After my friends left yesterday, I was pulled into sleep. Awakening, I felt the energies. I returned to the chair where my brother was sitting. I went and got myself a bowl of ice cream and a novel and told him, I now need some “normal time” in order to exist and allow the integration. It is difficult to hold the frequency for long periods as my body is still adjusting to the massive influx of light.

fullsizeoutput_17a3I sense that this summer eclipse season and Lion’s Gate hold so much new for each of us. I saw codes showering down upon us all, each one activating the matching codes that we came imprinted with. Such a shower of lovelight, sparkling joy! Magic blooms upon the earth once again as we step into our truth more fully. I am so grateful to my body for all that she has done to hold and process the energies all of these years. It has taken a toll. I am weary. Yet the renewal and rejuvenation is at hand. Hang on….it is about to become a more joy filled ride on this earth. Sending each one the blessings of this time, knowing this is why we came, to return all to love.

Flowing in the Fast Current of February

A faery arch in the redwoods, symbolizing the joining to come.

A faery arch in the redwoods, symbolizing the joining to come.

It is only the fourth of February and my life has been going at a full gallop since it blew in. It is difficult to find a sequence to events as I have lived through ages since the first of the month. During an afternoon of art, Nooryana (a warrior aspect of myself) came forth and settled in more fully. We also did a stargate card session, which always amazes me with its accuracy. It showed the old focus in my life with the image of a magician and a block. I understood this as seeking spiritual gifts and magic within a known structure….the new age movement with its boundaries and rules. The other cards showed me in my inward space of now, moving into greater discernment and sword sharp, clarity. A gate card had me standing in front of it, gathering all of myself, the sword I drew, ran through my center, magnetizing all of my aspects to myself to it. The crown card lit up as I stepped into my leadership role, uniting all of myself in the circle of unity (the other card I drew). Once we have cleared and embraced all of ourselves, the light and the dark, we are then free to step through the gate into the new landscape of oneness and love. I felt myself spiral down into the center of the All that is. I then flowed back up, observing each layer from a perspective of oneness. Seeing the all in each part. I had a vision of every soul coming into unity with self, receiving their crown and stepping forth singing their note in this celestial song.

Play with chalk and symbols.

Play with chalk and symbols.

It was such an incredible experience. All from some cards! You cannot make this stuff up! I had further confirmation from a friend in New Zealand, seeing my crown and sword and confirming the vision I was given. She and I and another worked on the inner planes with the divine mothers, clearing dark energies about a man they were close to.  All flowed with ease, each of us complementing one another’s gifts, bringing about the highest good as the higher self of the man stepped forth to receive this clearing’s freedom. My spirit smiled at me, as I accepted my gifts more fully.

The next morning, I had a clearing session with a gifted friend. That morning, I received an email from my daughter that triggered me, a sign that something needed clearing. I was surprised to discover the deep soul connection I shared with her partner. I saw the reason for his wariness with me, I had chopped his head off a few times in other lifetimes! We had played many roles with one another and he was again playing a powerful role for me. I sobbed with the emotions that were released and forgave him and myself for much of what came up. We went on to clear other emotions, most of them residing in my feet. My I AM presence was anchored in as far as my ankles, my feet remaining to be cleared. So, we worked on what showed up. Some with my daughter, as we came to teach one another about freedom and God’s will, over and over. All of our lifetimes were in the mother-daughter relationship, alternating who was “in control”. I recall her yelling at  me as a young girl how she was so did not enjoy being the daughter, she knew herself as the mother! There was some spinal twining with my elder son, planned on our parts, until now. The moment for release here to allow the next unfolding. A heel’s worth of grief (it had felt the burning at the stake fires) with another released as did a toe of guilt with my sister who committed suicide thirty-five years ago. A ball of my foot release with the one I thought my beloved, as he taught me that self sacrifice was old and not an honoring of myself. Cascades of tears flowed as she and I worked back and forth to clear all from our fields that was ready to depart. Emptied, we then filled ourselves with our own essence that had awaited room to enter in.

IMG_5975Later, my friend of the cards and messages, came over and we spent a couple of hours in the hot tub, creating a wheel that was being turned by us and others known to us, who participated in their KA bodies. We stretched out this way and that, under and above water as dolphins, whales and cosmic beings played in the waters with us. Four crystals formed the hub of the wheel on the bottom of the tub. We were well and truly washed clean for what came next. My friend had released a barrier in herself with her divine counterpart a day or so before. She now felt him in every cell of her being, no separation. He is assisting in what is to come. We set up an altar on a painting that I had co-created with an artist in New Zealand. She had brought through an aspect of myself, called Rosebud. When we worked on the painting, a dancing couple appeared in the blank space of the canvas. I knew it as my beloved and myself. It had been rolled up for months as I had no space to hang it. We unrolled it on the floor and it was the base for an altar we set up. The crystal skulls want to participate and I laugh when I see the hearts that I was guided to place in their eyes the night before. They knew love was on the agenda.


Painting co-created with Jan Williams……she brought forth the angelic form.

I am to set the energy as I understand that I am to be initiated. There is an anointing that will take place, preparing me for my beloved. Taking direction from my friend, I lie down, my head on the painting, crystals at my crown, heart rocks at my feet. My friend plays her crystal singing bowls and bells over me. The bowls stated their love of playing together and how their power increases in co-creation as does ours. I travel within, feeling my cells spinning faster, raising my vibration. My beloved appears, he is learning to feel form once again. He reaches out a hand and pulls me to him. We stand and spiral as one. He whispers: “Soon, soon the meeting will take place.” I understand that I am acting as proxy for thousands, no, millions on the planet. I feel the waves of despair of souls having closed their hearts to the idea of being truly met in love. It is an innate desire, the coming together into wholeness, before the splitting apart. The desire is so intense and the heartache so deep from lifetimes apart, that we have not allowed ourselves to fully feel it nor bring it into  the light of day. My sword went into action, clearing the despair, the feelings of unworthiness, the self-doubt, the pain. It takes great courage to open ourselves fully to this love, to open ourselves to ourselves. Our beloved is us as we are they. Imagine how the reunion of these couples will ignite the world with love! The earth announces her readiness to hold this frequency of love. I have been a part of preparing the pathway for the reunions, for many a year. I have surrendered over and over my yearning for this union. I have trusted that the most perfect timing is being arranged by my I AM presence. I know how loved I am as I walk with this fullness in my heart.

All was arranged that neither of my housemates were returning for the weekend, so the altar was able to be left in place to hum all night long. I was buzzing and not able to sleep until almost midnight. The next morning, we began again. We skyped with a friend in Scotland and the three of us journeyed together. As the energy completed, I received a text that my son was on his way home. All perfectly orchestrated and aligned. We come together and things happen with no effort, thought or plan; new vistas and landscapes present themselves. Our human minds could not arrange it as well if we tried. Allowing and trusting the flow brings such rich gifts!

The next day, four of us met to sit with crystals, rocks, skulls, flowers and the sun. We all shifted further. One friend said how she desired to spread her legs wide and invite in the ecstasy of the universe! We laughed at the orgasmic bliss that our hearts were experiencing. We were opening in new ways, fluid and free, our cells inviting in this union.

IMG_5973The next initiation is at my shoulder, awaiting its moment. There is no preparation though I am given a window of time in that Leopold, my beloved skull, desires to be wearing a wreath of yellow flowers in celebration of my awaiting expansion. I understand it will take me into a new realm of existence. The forsythia bush has just put out a few blossoms, within a week or two, it will be covered and ready to be made into wreaths. I open myself in readiness, I offer all that I am in service to the One. Whatever awaits, I am ready. I know this is happening for all of us as we embody more of who we truly are. I honor the courage of each of our hearts, opening to love’s flames.