In the Spiraling Energies

These photos are from the Zen center. Aren’t you excited just seeing the brushes? I loved how the teacher kept these toys for the last day along with the big sheets of watercolor paper. It was the reward after sessions of small brushes and computer paper. You may not be able to tell but my arm is de-lighted as it made that swirl and held the biggest brush in my hand. FUN!

I chose this photo of the circle and that swirling movement as I am feeling a part of intense spiraling energies. Seeing so much stuff coming up and needing time to integrate, drop deep into my heart and allow the energies to flow. I had to cancel plans to leave today to head north. I am simply in need of rest. I have to honor my body and its needs. Breaking old patterns once again to state to myself that I am my highest priority.

Emotions rise more quickly to the surface when fatigue is present and can carry me along with them. I know not to resist these days, to allow the flow whether it is anger or sorrow. I prefer to be able to witness rather than be carried along with the tornadoes that have swept through me! So there has been surrendering. There is so much light coming into the planet and so much density being released. I have felt the deep sorrow and anger of the feminine moving through me the past few days. Wow! Big energy and it has swallowed me like a river at moments. Cry, sleep, eat. Down to the basics which is what happens when I am going through an expanding period. Not able to write or talk much, simply surrendering to what is. Allowing myself to align as a portal for the energy to move through as well as the divine love and peace to anchor in. We are being asked to let go in a big way as well as hang on through this phase by focusing on peace in our hearts.

A friend helped me this morning as I was describing this anger moving in me. He said, “View it as an emotional rash. You have a rash. Stop editorializing the whys of the rash, a rash will run its course. Knowing about it will not do much other than deciding how to deal with the itch.” Now that made me laugh! Oh, I simply have a rash. So today I am going to take a nap and watch a funny movie as my way of dealing with my itch. This thought totally changed the energy from, “His behavior makes my blood boil!” to thinking of a rash that needs soothing. Whew……took the heat right out of it for me and put a smile on my face :)

I love friends and the ways that we can help one another shift and grow. Another friend called this morning and we were able to confirm some timings and movements that we both feel are happening. It is fun to find the puzzle pieces coming together. Another friend called yesterday to tell me he will be in town and also his plans for the coming months. I said, “you are following me, I am planning on being in those places also!” I am enjoying witnessing how the players are being gathered. Our families of light are gathering. My heart is getting hits of the joy and beauty just around the bend. This allows me to sink more fully into the present moment and see the beauty in what I am feeling and releasing. Much more than things of this present lifetime, rather we are letting go of sorrow, anger, frustration, fear, despair(the list goes on) from all of our lifetimes away from home.

Gratitude for it all and now, time for my nap!

Same Day, New Insights

Shifting so fast as since we entered the last wave of the Mayan calendar, a year’s worth of days is now compressed into 20 days. So it makes sense that my perspective would shift in a day or hourly as that is a period of days in our old world.

Spoke with my sister about this morning’s shift around my preparedness shopping. She laughed and said, “You cannot hold fear in your being for long enough to get out the door, no less on an entire shopping trip!” We laughed as I knew that it was true. I have stepped out of that vibration for anything more than a moment. I felt guided to buy the stuff, did not feel panic around it nor any sense that I would be using it. Rather that I was to do it. That was it. Just like when I would be driving around the country and feel guided to go in some direction…no judgment of it. I simply followed. My heart does lead the way these days. And it has its own reasons that can be entirely mysterious to me. I want her to lead me more and more so I pay attention. I trust her to lead me home to my higher self. To lead me home to God. I greet each day with some curiosity as to where she will take me. Today it was the ocean with wild waves and wind. I came home with sand plastered on my face, I looked and felt sandblasted!

So the old notion that I stressed for my kids of knowing why you are doing something, no
longer really works. It is that mental construct that believes that if we line up all the facts, add a to b, we will come out with c. Now we may end up with z! The heart has its own system that is feeling based and love based. It operates from unity consciousness and moves in new ways that the mind can find pretty mysterious. To me, it puts the joy back in life. I trust that all is well and I free up so much of that mental chatter space that used my energy to try to make this happen and that not happen. Mind you, (oh that is funny!) it was all thought going on pretty much non-stop in my mind, believing that it could change outcomes. If I worry about him, I will help him. Yikes, how did we believe that? I did for a long time. Now I feel such peace as I know that we all shift and move in the perfect time. It is not my job to be involved with anyone else’s movement in life. I am in charge of my life, period. I can witness and acknowledge others’ steps but not direct them.

I was thinking of playing a game of cards, (which makes me think that would be fun to do,
haven’t in years it seems) and how you sometimes get a winning hand. You celebrate and then throw your winning cards back into the pile to be reshuffled. You are back in the game, you may get a good hand or a bad one, but you are playing. I was thinking of how I hung on to this last love that was so big in my life. I had a winning hand, celebrated it and then refused

to throw my cards back in to be reshuffled. Somehow I thought that if I just held on to them, the winning hand would return. It is the same if we draw a poor hand. We don’t refuse to play on and bemoan the fact that we drew a poor hand. I want to throw my cards back on the table and draw some new ones. I need to allow the game to go on. I want to be playing at this life on all levels, in every moment. So, deal me in!