Rest and Appreciation

“The important thing is this: to be able, at any moment, to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.”

Maharishi Mahesh Yogi

Little treasures that I found today that pleased me so.

A friend sent this quote my way and it resonates for today. This is the detachment that I am learning. To live each moment fully, savor it and then to let go completely. So that I am fully present for the next moment. We tend to hang on to beautiful moments, replaying them in our minds. Actually, we do this with difficult moments also, running that loop in our mind as we try to make it resolve in a new way. It is a form of non- trusting. Non-belief that life will continue to create beauty that we have not even imagined. Non-belief that each experience has its gift for our growth contained within. Accepting the perfection of ALL that comes our way. I want all of it. I want what I have not experienced, the delights that are undreamed in my limited imagination.

I am ready to sacrifice who I am as that is my nature as an evolving being on this planet. I know that I have many more incarnations of Linda Marie in this body to experience. I love sharing with friends the reflections of our growth. Acknowledging the ways that we have grown and changed. It is important to see the twists and turns in the road and how we have grown from taking the path in front of us. So many are softening their hearts. So many are letting go and allowing life to move without such resistance. There are so many signs of this shift abounding.

I was speaking with a friend about this and laughing at who we are today as compared to even a month ago. We are both resisting less, accepting the gift of all in our lives. It is easier to take a wider perspective as we view events in our lives. There is less drama and more peace. Less irritation with others and more gentleness with ourselves. That is such a big one. I am so easy and light with me these days. I praise myself for all the little things that I do well and embrace the growing part of me as I learn new skills. I have let go of the comparison game: no more asking why I am not making my living channeling Archangel Michael though he speaks to me frequently. Why am I not settled in a home? Why don’t I get the visions that another does? Why am I not offering some sort of service to others? I am so grateful these days for each of my friends gifts and celebrate them and their expression in the world. I am also so grateful for my gifts and celebrate my movement in the world. I see more clearly the part that I play and am so grateful to have been called to play it. After all, how many of you could have traveled about in your car for two years, with very little direction and understanding of your role other than whiffs of energy that you chased across the country? Ha, I know that the idea of the total freedom that I have had seems like bliss yet I see clearly that each path has its challenges for the one taking it. My doer self had to make peace with doing nothing that the outer world could recognize as something. My identity has had to come from an internal sense of self worth, that my beingness on this planet is my gift. My practical mind had to let go of outer security (insurance, retirement accounts, income) and rest in inner security. Sounds easy in words but it was hard won in the days and nights alone on the road. Often I could see no point in my zigs and zags and had no way to communicate my path to others in a language that made sense.

“You just drive about the country?” Um, yes I do. “What exactly are you doing ?” Um, I do not really know. I think I transmute energy, and anchor energy. “How do you do that?” I do not really know I just know when it is happening. “How do you support yourself?” I am living off the sale of my half of my former home to my wasband. “Well, lucky you, the rest of us have to work hard and sacrifice to maintain our lives.” Well, I own only a 17 year old car and some camping equipment. If you sold what you own, you could be free also. It is a choice. (Of course, I recognize that I am in a unique position of not raising children or being tied down by a spouse and have the blessing of some money in the bank. I do not underestimate the gift of all of this.)

You can see that it has had its challenges as well as its joys. It is the same for each of us, no matter what it looks like on the surface. My youngest son is having the challenge to not think of ways to make money but to rest in the supply that is offered to him in this moment and trust that rest is the most that he can give to the planet at this time. He has to let go of the productivity implant that equates worth with what you produce. He is given the gift of time to be in the stillness so that the beauty can be nurtured and then sprout from a place of strength and renewal. I would gift this time to all if I could yet we each create what we need as the next step or learning on our path. For another dear one of mine, it is to make a living and support herself fully in the world. What is a challenge to one, is a piece of cake to another. We all create exactly what we need. That is why judgment can be so heavy, we believe we know something about another from our perspective but from theirs, it can be that the exact opposite is true. We can only know about our path and our lives.

“Deep rest is essential to ascension” says a wise friend of mine. I had not thought of it that way but it is true. We need time to integrate the enormous changes that are taking place in each one of us. And they are enormous! Our bodies are changing at the speed of light and we need to honor them as they morph in front of our eyes. So many strange ascension symptoms……heart burn as our heart chakras expand, headaches and dizziness as downloads of light come in, tingling legs and feet as we ground more fully into our Mother Earth, nausea and digestive issues as our bodies desire a change in diet. Need for sleep at odd hours and awake as I am at 3 am when the outer world is quiet and my inner being wants to commune. So I soak in the gift of time and drift in this space. I am a wayshower of the state of being. My time of action in the world is fast approaching but it will come from a firm foundation of beingness where all I do, I do with joy. And where I know that my presence is enough, the rest is for the experience and joy that it brings. I am a co-creator of this new earth, and my job is to show up with all of me in each moment and to follow my guidance as to how to serve this beautiful world. I honor each of you for how you serve. Espavo!