Clothing Shopping

A few of  my thrift store treasures that bring me such delight.

A few of my thrift store treasures that bring me such delight.

My youngest son is getting married next month. A cause for celebration and delight. Dress shopping for the event, has not held any of those elements. I realized that it has been years since I really shopped in regular stores.  I enjoy browsing thrift stores and finding small treasures and clothing that fits my mood. Nothing had turned up so I went with a friend to the smaller mall here in town, knowing that the mega mall she suggested, would overwhelm me.

The energy of consumption is so strong and it bears with it the enslavement program that we have lived under in this reality. People forced to labor for so much of their waking hours simply to provide food and shelter and then in the little free time remaining, bombarded with messages to go out and consume. Keeping the whole cycle intact, buy more, work more in order to buy more…..yikes!

The dressing room

The dressing room

What struck me was how it made me feel. Standing in a dressing room, my body felt all wrong. Too fat, too flabby, too short. The lights and mirrors did nothing but point out my flaws. I feel a naked body is a thing of beauty, no matter its size. I find I feel more comfortable with my body naked than in clothes. Well, especially dress clothes. The thought of stockings and waistbands….it has been years since I wore any of it. When we are at home, most of us want to remove bras and confining waistbands and pull on loose soft clothing. Yet that is not to be found in clothes for dressy occasions. I wanted a pretty dress in a light color. Simple enough desire but they were not to be found. Black and navy blue, white and cream were the colors. I did not want a dark dress nor to wear the bridal cream and white. I did not want form fitting tightness. I wanted comfort and beauty.

I came home and had a cry and ate cookies. It was amazing to me how the whole experience affected me. There is such a heavy propaganda agenda to make us feel inadequate. We are not beautiful enough, thin enough, fit enough. I thought, I am a sixty year old grandma. I thought of my grandmother and how she looked. There was not this idea that you had to look young. You had gray hair, soft belly and bosom, your body a source of comfort. My grandma was rail thin but she looked like a grandma.

I know and understand this energy and yet it affected me strongly. Think of all those who do not understand that they are being manipulated and truly believe the advertising messages.  It felt so heavy and oppressive. I could feel the collapsing of these structures and ways of living.

A walk by the river calmed me, this tree already showing its fall colors. It reminded me that change is at hand.

A walk by the river calmed me, this tree already showing its fall colors. It reminded me that change is at hand.

It took awhile for me to recover from it all. I will wear a skirt and top that I have and feel comfortable in, allowing my inner beauty to be my shine. This summer has been difficult with my face being altered due to the skin surgeries that required me to stay out of the sun much of the time,  the extra weight I am carrying in my belly, the intense days of feeling flattened by the energies. I have felt so uncomfortable in my skin, no real pain, rather intense discomfort, a sure sign that there is a shift just ahead for me. And for so many of us as we move in to our crystalline bodies of light. I am ready. I am so ready!

 

No More Separation

The river was flowing fast this morning.

The river was flowing fast this morning.

I found myself having a chuckle as I reread my last post. I spoke of calling in Archangel Michael. It truly is aspects of my greater self that I call in. There is no longer a separation between us and our guides/ascended masters/ angels. It feels now as if all were integrated as part of me. There is not the going outside, for answers. There aren’t really questions. Instead, there is the field of light that is available for us all to tap into. The ONE source, the All.

By surrendering to the wisdom and guidance of my greater self, life shifts. I know that I am so loved and cherished by my soul, my oversoul…..whatever term we want to give it. I know that from that broader perspective, the choices are more clearly seen. The pathway to my highest good is highlighted. As I allow my inner knowing to have free rein, then I can trust that all that enters my world, is of benefit to my growth and expansion.

This knowing allows a sense of peace to underlie my days. There may be the ups and downs of our human emotions as they are there to guide us. As we allow the feelings to be felt and flow through us, we are moved along our chosen path.

These grasses were showing me how to surrender to the currents of life. Bending not breaking.

These grasses were showing me how to surrender to the currents of life. Bending not breaking.

I love the way I love myself. I love how I chose the lessons and situations that I intended, whether I liked them at the time or not. I recall going through an abortion in my twenties, a devastating event for me at the time. Yet, even while I was in it, I knew that I would look back and know that it served me. That it offered me a gift. It did allow me to let go of much judgment of others and have compassion for folks in situations that I would have deemed wrong previously. That soul later came to me as my eldest son. Within the first moments of his birth, he conveyed to me the message that there was nothing to forgive, that all was as it should be. That we had loved one another since the beginning of time and had come at this time for a shared purpose.

I am often in awe of how lessons come to me, how much orchestration is involved in having different people and circumstances show up in order to teach me something. How amazing is that? How we are loved!

We are remembering that we are masters and creator beings. It is exciting to feel into the creations that await our touch. We are birthing the world that we wish our children and grandchildren to live in as we remember how to love.

Deep Naps and Strange Noises in the Night

The light shining through the darkness, a gift.

The light shining through the darkness, a gift.

Today I went to see my son for a bit, intending heading to the library afterwards. Instead, I drove straight back home. I had considered just dropping the books and dvds but even that was too much. They are not due until tomorrow so I could wait. I cooked myself some food for my suddenly ravenous appetite. Body settled, I noticed the time…..2:22. 11:11 had appeared at the a.m. and p,m. hours. It feels that I am syncing up with some part of myself as these numbers come in once again. I awoke close to 7p.m. in a daze. It took some time to come back from wherever I had been journeying. It was hard to believe that it was already evening, day and night becoming intertwined.

Last night I awoke to hear a Tibetan choir…..it felt as if I were in a cave listening to that magical overtone chanting that the llamas do. My mind was trying to figure it out..wait, I am in bed, where is that coming from? Then there sounded like footsteps outside that stopped at my window. I had a momentary shiver go through me. I decided it must be an animal yet had the sensation of someone. I called in Archangel Michael and asked all not of the Christ light to depart. I took a breathe and reminded myself that there is nothing to fear when I turn on my heart light. I breathed that knowing into my body. There were a few other strange noises, then pressure on my feet and calves as if someone was working on me. Strangely, that has become familiar to me and does not cause my body any fear at all. It was the strange noises that lit up the fear button. All ceased and sleep overtook me.

I have had a few of these experiences of late. It feels like a bleed through from another dimensional space. I am setting my intention tonight to participate in that which is for my highest good and allows my body peace.

So many colors and forms! I know that one day, I will create new ones.

So many colors and forms! The flower faeries have told me that one day, I will create new ones.

We are co-creating this shift.  We can intend for it to be with as much ease and grace as possible for us all. The twinkling of an eye is an expression that has reverberated deep within my knowing for most of my life. I know that it is possible. Our hearts are so ready for the magic. Trusting it all to flow outward as our knowing of how life can be quickens those dreams hidden so deep within our hearts. Oh, there is so much beauty to come. We are all so beautiful in our myriad colors and forms. May we see this beauty in one another and know it in ourselves.

 

 

Eccomi…..Here I AM

IMG_3612 (1)One day, we will look back at these times and marvel at the beings that we are. Another intense day; a trip out to get the post surgery sunscreen and silicone pads for my nose,  home to make food, followed by a deep three hour sleep. Whew. Not able to do anything for the remainder of the day except watch a BBC series and drink quarts of water. Tried to sleep, my body still feeling head pressure and weighted yet my mind active with buzzing energy. To say that I am done with this way of living….is an understatement. It is a half life, at best. Tonight I am at that edge point….let me shift out of body or allow me to have some sustainable energy that makes a life here possible.

I feel such tenderness for this body elemental that has withstood so much. I know how blessed I am by her. I am grateful for the relatively pain free existence that I have had in her. I know so many who have taken on physical dis ease and pain to transmute it back to love for us all. I am grateful for their service.

The green green algae, my green hat and nose bandage all enjoying the sun.

The green green algae, my green hat pulled low over my nose with its added protection of a bandage, all enjoying the sun.

I was reading a woman’s memoir about Italy where she described the unselfish care that her Italian mother-in-law bestowed upon her family. The word used was, eccomi…eh ko me. It means, here I amThe mother used this word in answer to questions, concerns, tears. Eccomi. That word hit me in my heart. It could describe so many  on this planet.  Here I AM. Offering all in service to this earth, to humanity, to the Creator. Eccomi. Here I AM.

I know that there has been a qualitative change that has taken us beyond the parameters of old. The shift is in progress, so many layers have lifted, entire dimensional spaces have been collapsed from the bottom up. The densest spaces having been cleared as we move up the scale of frequencies. I know that the horizon is bright with possibilities beyond my imagining.

We are in the embodiment phase. We are bringing the frequencies of heaven to earth through these dear body elementals.  I trust in the regeneration, youth ing, radiant health that is on tap. Yet tonight, all I can feel is that we are due for an R&R as the fatigue factor is mighty. Another word that I liked from the Italian memoir was carnale….of the flesh. She describes how our English word, carnal is derogatory and has sexual connotations. Whereas, the Italian word, carnage meant precious, sacred. Fully of the flesh. I want to be fully in my flesh, to feel so embodied in my divine feminine grace that every cell in my body dances in its truth.

At times, the energy flows to cooking. Today I was able to enjoy so many colors in one meal...yum!

At times, the energy flows to cooking. Today I was able to enjoy so many colors in one meal…yum!

I am ready to live my divinity fully. I dream of the day that we no longer talk about spiritual matters as we embody the light. We are the light. I am ready for a simple life of beauty and love and connection. My Italian memoir points out how the American author outgrew her binge eating due to the healthy fresh food eaten in community. The cooking and sharing of food giving it all those love nutrients that we have lost in our culture. I want to cook and eat with others, not in the singular way I did for decades as a housewife but in a way where more is shared as a community.  The growing, the harvesting, the cooking, the eating…all with others. I want to live in a love pod that hums with its harmonic overtone. Where every sentient being is singing their note and all are understood. The trees outside my door converse with me as easily as my soul sister, the breeze speaks in a language of light that flows through my mind like the sweetest music, the earth meets the soles of my feet with spirals of energy, pulsing up through my form. All is in harmony. All is at peace. All is love.

Dear body of mine, we will hold fast to this knowing. This month of August is about showing up each day as best we can, trusting to the quickening that September’s energies hold. Eccomi, here I AM.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Aligning With These New Energies

Flowers in the house, so fill my heart. Especially these lacy pink cosmos!

Flowers in the house, so fill my heart. Especially these lacy pink cosmos!

Awake since 4 a.m. after being pulled under early last night. The wave of energy felt like an ocean wave washing over me, then sucking me down deep. I felt held under with no ability to come up for air. I surrendered and allowed. I beheld magic lands so deep under the oceans, inviting me in. So much is beyond my own will, we are truly being held by our divinity as it moves us to align in every moment with our highest aspects. Can you feel the shaking from the inside out? The buzzing moving up and down the spine, the light body floating closer and closer.

It takes me to a place of not knowing. A space of no mind. The trust is immense. I know that all is alignment, that all is on track. This now is asking me to float in the dream. I listen and respond as I am called, no matter how strange it seems. Yesterday I had the image of myself at Costco with a friend. I do not go to Costco or many stores as I tend to feel overwhelmed in such environments. Later in the day, this friend called and said, “I know this seems weird, but I have to go to Costco and I see you with me. Do you want to come?” I laughed and responded that yes, I would join her. There was nothing big that happened there, we both got the same message that we were to simply move our energy throughout the store. So we did.

Pasta and fresh veggies feed me with their color.

Pasta and fresh veggies feed me with their color.

Mostly I am finding myself in stillness. At times, listening to conversations, it is as if I am tuned to white noise. I feel befuddled and not able to respond to what is being said or asked. So much of me is engaged on other planes, that there is only a maintenance level system taking care of this body, at times. Yesterday, I ate almost continuously as the energy waves would leave me shaking and emptied. Food was used up in an instant and more required. Salad and fruit dissolved almost instantly, fortunately that Costco trip found me buying a package of organic chicken that was perfect for helping to settle my body. My mind had hesitated to purchase it as I have not felt a desire for meat of late, but my hand overruled and said, buy it. Trusting my body to know what it needs in each moment.

Short term memory is dissolving at a rapid pace as the electrical and magnetic currents on the planet are changing. It effects our body systems. We are being moved into the NOW moment. In each moment, I trust that I am broadcasting the love and peace that I wish to live in. I may not feel that in every moment yet I know that my essence is humming that tune of the Mother’s love.

Time to be the shining light that we are!

Time to be the shining light that we are!

I am feeling the joy, feeling the roots of all of us entwined as we sing our notes of love. It is getting stronger each day. The collective call for peace and harmony is beaming out from this planet. We are calling it to us through our hearts’ desiring. All is quickening. All is moving. All is love. I am breathing it in with a grateful heart.

 

Dreams Create

Design from an ancient relic at the art museum that delighted me.

Design from an ancient relic at the art museum that delighted me.

It is 11a.m. and I am moving slowly. The energies are keeping me still. Intestinal cleansing heralds the old clearing out to make way for the new. Black tea with honey and milk is going down like an elixir. The outside temperature is mild, low 80’s. I am feeling comfortable and quiet. Last night’s dishes are in the sink, bed remains unmade, no shower or teeth or hair brushing yet. A couple of short phone calls and an online chat. Nothing to take me too far from the dreamscape.

I woke from a delightful dream. I was with my beloved. I was so happy, skipping type joy. I said, “Oh, now that we are together, we can begin to create our home.” He laughed and said, “You have created it! It exists, do you wish to see it?” I was surprised. “How can this be? ” I asked. He told me that I created with my dreams. I have been dreaming it into being. Dreams create!!!

We walked into our home and it was all familiar to me. I knew the rooms, the layout, the sweeping vistas out the windows. Everything so fitted to my joy. I turned to him with wonder in my eyes. “Thank you for creating this with me. For being all that you are and knowing me so deeply. ” He thanked me for keeping the faith, for trusting in my dreams and divine timing to bring it all into manifestation. He thanked me for trusting that we would be together in the physical in this lifetime. For my perseverance as I walked this path, seemingly alone, for this past decade. It was a dream of great joy.

Fiery orange, color of manifestation is flooding my being of late. Wearing it, eating it, drinking it.

Fiery orange, color of manifestation is flooding my being of late. Wearing it, eating it, drinking it.

The energy has stayed with me. I feel so blessed as I can feel a cycle of my life completing, opening the doorway to the new. The hows and what and where and when are still unknown. The path is alight within my heart space. We are about to enter a time of joy unimagined. The earth and her elementals are vibrating with it. We are asked to align our hearts with it by dropping all of the old sorrows and hardships to allow space for the new to flow in. I am so grateful as I surrender to the dream of my deeper being.

May your day be blessed by your dream’s energy bathing you. Trust in it, knowing that the dream is creating the world you desire.  What a wonderful world that will be!

Envisioning

IMG_3606Oh my! Yesterday creativity flowed and I was able to begin a new beloved painting. It has been eons since I felt able to connect to that part of my self, except in the dreamscape. My youngest son will be married around the Autumn Equinox. I wanted to create a painting for he and his love. They carry the frequency of Jesus and Mary Magdalene, putting out a tone of deep love and respect. This thrills my heart.

The energies this month are lifting, allowing us to once again flow forward in action. It truly makes no difference what that is, though the defining vibration is one of joy. For my eldest son, it is getting various products to allow him to buff and restore the exterior of his old car, that has sat dormant for years. His car is like himself, it sat still while he was on his inner journey. Now, that time has come to a close as we are each called forth into life, once again. The dormant time has yielded powerful results as now we are able to be in the world, yet not of the world. We are able to hold our frequency of unity, oneness and truth in the face of this collapsing reality. We are needed as pillars of love light around the world, to sustain the new dimensional spaces as this one lets go around us.

Our hearts are ready to take wing!

Our hearts are ready to take wing!

This is the why we have not been able to live in our love pods, just yet. We have had to be evenly spaced around the globe so as to support this new structure, as well as being clear in our sovereignty.  Once this new frequency is fully anchored, the old can be swept away, and the new firmament will be laid in place. We will then be with all of those of similar vibration, dancing in joy at our reunion. The love pods will form effortlessly, no rules, no seeking a spot where you do not resonate. All will be sorted by a tone, a knowing. Each will be with others who cherish and acknowledge their gifts. A time of homecoming in the very best sense of the word.

My sense is that the Autumn equinox will find us stepping into this new world. I see unicorns and faeries dancing at my son’s wedding. I see us shining in our rejuvenated bodies, giggling at how effortlessly they move and perform. All will be restored according to the patterns of love and oneness. We will celebrate all the various tribes that have come to this beautiful earth to play. We will once again delight in this freedom.

Hold fast to your knowing in this time. Hold fast to your dreams. Trust this process. Observe the chaos with a neutral heart, knowing that all serves its purpose. Flood the earth with your love light. Know that your heart light  makes a difference. Be kind in all of your interactions. Be so tender with your body that is working so diligently to absorb and function in these ever increasing blasts of love light.

It is time to shine!

It is time to shine!

All is well, all is truly very well. Feel it in your heart. Know it in your cells. Sing it with your voice. Dance it with your body. We are but a breathe away. Savor these last days for whatever they hold. We will not pass this way again. Hallelujah!

A Breeze

Making my wishes and sending them flying on the breeze.

Making my wishes and sending them flying on the breeze.

We have had day upon day of heat here in the Central Valley of California. Tonight there is a blessed breeze flowing in and my heart is lifted. I am so ready to walk in coolness, to feel uplifted by the elements, rather than oppressed. The energies have begun to lift also. It feels like a respite. A space to catch our breath and feel where we are now.

I was speaking with my son today about the small scope of this life that I have lived. He pointed out that meant that there was so much more for me to experience. So true! I have so many desires to live out, so much that I know would bring me great pleasure and joy. I would like to ride a horse across a meadow in the shadow of a familiar mountain range. I would like to whirl with the dervishes in a skirt of billowing white. I would like to tone with monks in Tibet, losing myself in the sounds. I would like to look into the eyes of my beloved and know myself at home.

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My body may feel as dried out as this tree but the green grass is a growing and all can become alive in a new way.

Thank goodness we will rejuvenate these bodies of ours so that they can move and dance in all the ways that I can imagine and many that are beyond my imagination. I want to live a life that is beyond what I am able to imagine. I can sense components of the love pods yet I know that the feelings we shall experience will be deeper and richer and more glorious than any we have known.

Imagine knowing that all people have food and shelter. That all people are free from hardship. That all beings are cherished and honored for the gifts that they bring to their love pod. Oh my, wouldn’t we all rest easier with that reality? Imagine waking up in the morning and seeking out your friends to play with, to co-create with. Imagine the giddy joy that will be amplified as we all come out to play!

Imagining myself back at this cool spot, being refreshed by the dancing undines of the water.

Imagining myself back at this cool spot, being refreshed by the dancing undines of the water.

We stand at the threshold to this new land. We are creator beings come once again to this beautiful earth. Mother Gaia is recreating herself, and we are given the opportunity to do so with her. Honor your daydreams and the dreams of the night for they are vehicles to take us to this new land.

This gentle cool breeze is inviting me to enter the dream. I will see you there.

Claustrophobic and Its Release

Heart in a water puddle on my counter, reminding me that I am loved.

Heart in a water puddle on my counter, reminding me that I am loved.

Whew, these energies have been intense. Yesterday, the last day of July found me hitting the wall. The bandages on my face, the trees around, the heat, everything conspired to make me feel trapped. I felt so tightly squeezed, tapped out. Nothing left to give. I spoke with a friend and let the tears fall. I am tired. So tired of holding this frequency, this note of mine.

The trust in the bigger picture is always with me, yet the fatigue of this journey has me worn out. I would like to feel some energy animate my body, feel enthused about something, anything! Feel some juice flowing. It happens in conversations with friends, where we share this space of no space. We weave light strands and create, though no form as yet. Still, it provides a breathing space. Thank God for each other!

Last night I dreamt of taking off layers of clothes. They felt so heavy and it took so long to remove each piece. Everything felt weighted. We are taking off these dense robes, ready to embody our light bodies. This bridging time has called upon every reserve within us. It has been such a testing time of our mastery.

It may not look pretty but I created an amazing balance with these rocks. Inner stillness creates.

It may not look pretty but I created an amazing balance with these rocks. Inner stillness creates.

Today, I have dozed and dreamed all day. I was given the image of a battery this morning. I am a cell of liquidlovelight. My job today was to allow all of my energy to be used to fuel the grids. Pouring out the love, knowing that as more and more awaken, they have more of a platform to stand upon than we did. There is a steadier ground to receive them as they take the leap from the old matrix.

I felt lighter, happier in my heart, despite my body not being able to move. This phase is ending. There are clearer skies ahead. Thank you, universe! I am so grateful. It has been a journey like no other. I saw a dear heart last night who is in the thrill of awakening. He was so full of excitement and wanted to share all his new insights. I smiled as I listened. It will be an easier path for him than it was for those of us who have been living it for this last decade or two or three. For that, I am grateful. We gave up everything. It has felt like we are on life support, provided by one another, as we  passed the oxygen mask around.

Naked and free...

Naked and free…

Tonight there is a breeze flowing, the temperatures are dropping below the century mark and my heart feels some ease and joy flowing in. I am grateful to be here. I am ready for the magic games to begin.

Out From the Shadows

Sweet nose as I sit with the trinity of crystals, birthing a new energy.

Sweet nose as I sit with the trinity of crystals, birthing a new energy.

I saw a photo from a few weeks back when I was working with some crystals. My nose, my sweet nose, did I truly appreciate her? Now I have the bandage off and am to massage the graft twice daily. I look at this piece of skin that came from behind my ear. A place where it was not noticed and now it is front and center, on my nose. Somehow, this is related to us at this time in our evolution. We are being moved into a more outward position in our lives. Our light is pushing us forward. I do not know the form as yet but feel it. I sense it for many, that we are being prepared to step into new, more visible roles. Just as  my hidden ear skin is now the first thing that you see when you look at me. Hmmm…not exactly comfortable but here I am.

As I held the two outer crystals there was such a magnetic pull between them, one masculine and one feminine, it jolted my body and took all of me to hold them in my hands. A friend then placed the third crystal in my hands and the energy exploded. A new creation….I spoke that now is the time when all would be given the opportunity to birth a new frequency. It could take any form, a baby, a book, a rainbow light, a sound. All would carry this new frequency of love. Love as not experienced heretofore on earth. Cosmic love, sovereign love, free love, agape love. Love that expands, enriches, creates. Love that needs no protection, no barriers. We have all heard echoes of it within the chamber of our hearts. Now its tone can be heard as it is anchored through me, through you, into our beloved Mother Gaia.

unnamed-1The heat continues today. I have sheets hanging on the line so as to sleep wrapped in sunshine tonight. All around me, I am hearing of things becoming physical as our bodies cleanse all that is not love within. So many dealing with their bodies in a new way, bringing us closer to inhabiting our bodies fully. We are bringing heaven to earth….our bodies are the vehicles. Emotionally, I am seeing dramas unfurl. We can assist one another with gentle listening and acknowledging the range of emotions that can erupt. Forgiveness of self and others is so essential in this time. Kindness, the knowing that everyone is doing the very best that they can. All have their plates full and a kind word can do wonders. Envisioning ourselves and others as the tender children that we are, can lift the energies.

My surgery on my ear and jaw allowed so much old anger and resentment to depart, I was not aware that I still carried it until a friend and a crystal helped it release. I stand in gratitude for all that is happening in this now. It may look chaotic yet there is a plan it is following. Trust continues to be the name of the game.