Ascension Symptoms Update, It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better

Oh joy, I can feel the light!

Oh joy, I can feel the light!

Whew, this morning I awoke to joy. Yes, JOY after hitting a wall that left me desiring only to be done with this reality. I am hearing from so many who are in this place of great despair. Hold on! I would like to throw out a life line to each one of you. It is darkest before the dawn……we have all heard that but are now truly living it. We have done so much internal work, cleared out the debris, emotionally from our hearts and mentally from our minds. We have identified limiting beliefs and chucked them overboard. We have forgiven and ho’oponoponoed till the cows come home. We have let go of everything over and over, people, possessions, titles, roles and homes. We have been ridiculed, called the devil, acted as the wall for others to throw darkness upon. Stripped bare, we stand naked upon a lonely shore.

We have landed in some kind of teenage hell where our emotions are in overdrive, bliss one moment to be followed by long stretches of nothingness dipping into utter despair. We sweat all night, waking up reeking. My God, I smell like a teenage boys’ locker room! I have to air out my bedroom and change my sweaty sheets and wash pjs. Toxic emissions are pouring out of me. I am either freezing cold or else sweat is running down my face. This is worse than the menopausal times. I cry at anything, can feel irritation from a sound, a fabric, a smell. My body is hypersensitive, trying to find some way to idle at neutral. The top of my head feels like someone spends nights dancing on it with cobbled shoes. My neck and lower back feel broken at times. Literally, as if they could not possibly come back together. My legs run highly charged electricity through to the earth in continuous streams that ache. How anyone manages to hold down a job through all of this, is beyond me. My hats are off to you and I hold you in my prayers each day. It takes all of me to do what I do as my service to this earth.

I feel and look ancient, like a crone and yet other times, I see my reflection and my eyes are so full of light they look like stars. The fatigue that will not quit and seems to have been part of my life forever, is emotionally debilitating. Doing is somewhere on a cloud, out of reach, while I lie on my back and watch it float by. Memory is a thing of the past, I cannot recall what I did an hour ago, no less last week. I can disappear into no time for hours on end. Dreamy, spacey, not here nor anywhere, simply gone. Nausea makes eating a challenge as nothing tastes good or satisfying. Everything that once brought joy, holds no charge at all. I want to spit it all out! I feel like one of my children when they were toddlers in a cranky mood. Offered different activities; “Would you like to color? NO! How about playing with clay? NO! Let’s bake cookies. I HATE cookies!’ (when of course, up until this moment you loved cookies). I need the parent to come trundle me into bed and sit and smooth the hair back from my brow, murmuring endearments. Can I simply fall asleep and wake up when it is all over and the new earth is firmly landed in?  My heart cries, enough, enough already, get me off this merry go round!

Wash away my weariness, dear undines of the water.

Wash away my weariness, dear undines of the water.

As a collective, we are moving into unity consciousness. We are feeling everyone in a deeper way. Our hearts have exploded, shattered into a million pieces,  each containing the former capacity of the whole. We are amazing creatures to have signed on for this ride. To have said yes to attempting to move a carbon based dense body into a crystalline one that floats on air. Magicians are we. I celebrate each one of you as well as myself. The road will be easier for our brothers and sisters who follow, after all this heavy clearing work that we have done. The only thing that keeps our heads above water is TRUST. It sits like a jewel in our hearts and its glow is a lamp that we are drawn to over and over in order to see our way forward. Hold on, warriors of the heart. We are almost there. We have read channelings for ages and want to spit it all out. So tired of hearing, soon, almost, nearly there……like a child we can feel betrayed by the never ending litany of platitudes. It is time to throw a temper tantrum and state, I won’t take this anymore!!!

Glory of God moments fill my heart.

Glory of God moments fill my heart.

After we thoroughly exhaust ourselves, lying spent with our hair wild about us, tears staining our face……we take a breath. We look about and if we are fortunate, we make the choice to see with new eyes. This is an internal work, a shift of perception that we are asked to make. We are the vision keepers so while all this physical morphing is taking place, we are asked to see the new earth as if it were here. We are asked to be the child with the wild imagination who sits down to tea with our fairy friends. We are asked to allow the ribbons of our heartlight to embrace every soul on the planet, weaving the new tapestry of love that enfolds, nurtures, enlivens all. We are asked to see the beauty in the depravity of human nature and bring it back to the reality of love. We are asked to do the unimaginable. The amazing thing is., that we are doing it! We knew that we were stars, come to bring our great light to this dear beloved planet. Oh, how we love her! To bring our love to each man, woman and child, knowing them as us. Holding each one so tenderly in our hearts as we hold that immaculate concept for each one. Oh, the agony and the ecstasy of this time! Millions asked for this assignment and only a few were chosen. I am honored to be in your company. My heart bows before each of yours. Espavo! Thank you for taking your power, for walking the fierce fire walk that is this third dimensional life. Our victory is assured. We are making it. My heart tells me that over and over. I know. I simply know that love is a force like no other and that all melts before its light. God bless us all.

19 thoughts on “Ascension Symptoms Update, It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better

  1. Wow… That was beautiful love… Can relate to most of what you shared.
    It has been tough some days and weeks harder than others. I own a cleaning business and need to be out in thr field almost daily. Thank you for your prayers love and thoughts! Much love sister. <3 hugs

    • Dear Sundi,
      You are amazing! Out most days, that is a wonder and I do hold you in my heart. I even nap for you some days! Take care of you and know you are held in the mother’s arms.
      With ribbons of heartlight streaming peach-pink, golden light of love,

    • Dear Naomi,
      thank you for reading and taking the time to comment. I just viewed your website and love your paintings. I enjoyed the video. I too love to paint with my fingers. I am happy to meet you!
      Blessings of love,

      • Oh, how cool! Another finger painter! Finger painting is the only way I can “hear” the directions I receive as I paint. Thanks for your compliment.

        Your blog is truly food for my very worn out body and soul. Ugh. What an intense 4 years this has been! It’s a very weird time right now-still in pain and feeling wiped out yet also being called to service to help others on a daily basis. Feeling happy more often, for no apparent reason yet at times feeling like slapping all of humanity upside the head! So glad your blog was brought to my attention. Thank you for your work!

        • Naomi, I too looked at your site and was blown away! Your art is truly inspiring. I am another “finger painter” and when you said…. Finger painting is the only way I can “hear” the directions I receive as I paint……I just about fell off my chair. I call what I do, “automatic painting” and it is evident by what you said, you do it as well. Awesome! I just allow my hands to GO, no thought involved. My heart is expanding exponentially towards you in sheer happiness, knowing I have found another “sister”.
          WE all need to hold one another’s hands in etheric Love, just to let the other know, we are not alone.
          Hugs, Amy

        • Dear naomi,
          It has been intense. Great illustration of the yo yo energies, joy and bliss and raging irritation! It will all settle down as the old clears more and more. You are welcome, writing is my service and joy. It writes me.
          blessings to you, dear finger painter (how powerful your work is for all the inner children out there, giving them permission to return to childlike innocence and play)
          Much love,

  2. Loved every word of this! Seems as though I have lived through many “darkest before the dawn” scenarios. You are SO right by saying it is time to declare “ENOUGH!” and to dive into the Energy to figure out how the Energy can work for us! I’m so done smelling like I was 15 again. Thank God I don’t have the acne that goes along with it! LOL

    • haha, yes, good to remember the blessings, no acne! The energy is asking to work with us and let’s figure this out together. That is what I feel, it is by our hearts streaming together that the next level unfolds.

      • Sooooooo…….how about us all getting our MANUALS back so we can figure out how to create with this New Energy. :)
        Your words are balm to my Soul, Linda. Thank you for BEing you. From my heart to your heart, Pink Diamond Hugs!

        • I say let’s write the manuals together! The old will not suffice in this new energy, it will be each of us knowing our hearts and weaving our lights together for the good of all. Balm…you to me.

  3. I love you! Lovely to read your words just inhaling them feeling them and to laugh (well at times that is 😉 ) Im just feeling every single thing you said and oh the joy to be on this journey <3
    Wish you all the love and light!
    Hugs <3

    • Dear Linda,

      Thank you! I love you too. Inhaling the words, we are alike, I do that when they resonate with me as they feel like nourishment.I am glad that we are on the journey together.
      inhaling your kind wishes of love and light and exhaling ribbons of heartlight to you…..golden yellow with an iridescent green shimmering,

  4. Another beautiful sharing, lovely Linda :) Fellow flame of the magdalene. I work as a teacher in a university (not full time) and it actually helped to be at work for the last few years. I moved energy around me so it was less painful and liked the fact that I felt I was living a life of sorts rather than just existing. I haven’t worked much over the last few months and could not have managed the Dec.Jan transition otherwise. I sense you are going so far into these fields and your soul drives you forward so that you can bear love to shine for all of us. The guides tell me that all of us first wavers hold different parts of the puzzle that will make up the new earth. Thank goodness we have the internet so we can share this maelstrom with each other. I have always found blogs like your own help so much, love to you, Susan

    • Dear Susan,
      Oh, your radiant Magdalene flame of love! I see you. I am glad that you had your work and used it to move your light all about. Yes, we all have our roles to play. Mine is an extremist, fringe one! Ha! Inspired to disconnect from the outer world to such a degree so that all of me is free for this inner landscape exploration. I do so love all the pieces of the puzzle and hold such gratitude for how beautifully each is playing their part. We are beginning to connect, to lay our pieces on the table and ow and ah over the landscape we are creating. The internet has been such a gift for finding one another and feeling that comfort of sharing the path. I am so grateful that you found me and now, I you. So pleased to meet another Mary.
      blessings of love and ribbons of golden turquoise heartlight streaming to you,

  5. Thanks for sharing,I too am wondering when this is going to get easier as at times it is just overwhelming. I also have a challenge with my nervous system, it actually feels painful sometimes. i have faith that we are all being guided and cheered on by the higher realms with great love for taking our part in this amazing transition. love to all

    • Dear Rona,
      Thank you for reading. Taking one moment at a time, asking our Mother Earth to take the pain and turn it into light to feed us all, one breath, one step and we are growing into the flowers that we are. Your faith is so beautiful. Thank you for walking your walk with that held high.
      blessings of love, Linda

  6. Thank You Linda! Seeing my latest thoughts n feelings n such, in words,,, very cool. And gosh the intesity lessens when ya write it out huh? Well it did for me just by reading your words so beautifully put together…….. Connected are We~~thanks for BEing a part of the Family

    • Dear Cindy,
      You are welcome. I am glad to be a voice for the collective. We are all experiencing the oneness more and more. It is always a treat to meet soul family!
      Sending you ribbons of yellow and purple weaving love,

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