Accepting Our Grandeur

Happy December! Today the sun was filled with such joy and sparkly energies. The day seemed to have many parts to it. I felt as if I am living out different aspects of myself throughout the day. It began this morning with a dream about El Morya. He is an ascended master who was the first channeling that I ever heard and the one who was dearest to my heart.  Mother Mary is my dearest feminine master. They are the two who I asked to serve as my father and mother in this life after my parents disowned me in my early thirties. My kids used to call El Morya, “Mama’s main man” when they were little. They were right. I am following a 7 week program of focusing on an ascended master each day and asking to go to their retreat at night to receive their gifts. El Morya was the one I was focusing on last night which was a joy for me. I recalled how I had channeled him recently and how he had shared that I was an aspect of him. Here is some information about him and the program:

El Morya works under the authority of the Blue Ray representing God’s Will to the Earth. He gives assistance to all governments and stands by any of us desirous of doing God’s Will as the planetary servers of the Divine Plan. In previous embodiments, he was one of the three wise men making way to the Christ Child, King Arthur during the time of Camelot, Sir Thomas More, Akbar the Great, founder of the Mogul Empire of India. With great determination, he teaches us how to concentrate, to have unwavering focus, and to build our strength of character as this is in absolute divine alignment to the Divine Plan and Mission of Earth. His sacred fire of the blue flames gifts us with the Power of Command and expression of Divine Truth through all forms of our expression and media. His retreat is in Darjeeling and his electronic pattern is the chalice.
I was thinking of my beloved and it occurred to me that I had never heard of El Morya  having a divine counterpart as most of the masters seem to. I wondered why. I awoke from my dream feeling that I was El Morya’s beloved. Immediately my ego mind said, “Oh, please! Who do you think you are? An ascended master? Really?” Yet my heart felt this warm glow and I felt El Morya’s smile. The day moved on and I forgot all about it. After dinner I was sitting and knitting ( a long forgotten skill I am reclaiming) when the memory popped back in. I breathed it in and allowed it room even as my ego had a go again with his disdain. Just then a dear friend called who I work with in other realms. (do you see how Spirit arranged this call to reinforce the idea as it popped in……I love the timing!) I shared my dream with him in gratitude that I could without being thought mad. He said, yes, I can see that. He reminded me that we are gaining our ascended master selves and we will walk once again as brothers with the ascended hosts. So it makes sense that my beloved would be from that realm. Whether it is El Morya or not is not the point. Rather it is that I am being asked to expand my vision of who I am. I will be partnered with a being who matches my frequency as we enter this new earth. I am sure that this being will carry aspects of El Morya, being my other half how could he not, as I carry aspects of El Morya. I saw how the dream was an opening to more of me. To let go of any limiting ideas of who I am or what I can do. Rather to accept that I am a mighty being of light as we all are on this planet. We are all coded to wake up and play our parts in alignment with divine timing. We are being asked to move into our largeness and accept our grandeur. This photo that I took in Muir Woods of these mighty redwood trees holds this lesson for me. They are among the giants of the tree kingdom and they do not apologize for their height and beauty, nor do they stand there thinking themselves an apple tree when indeed they are a redwood. All trees are beautiful and have certain characteristics that make them special as do all people. Yet one variety of tree does not try to be another. They do not worry about comparisons. They simply are who they were created to be. I am being asked to own my tallness and to spread my branches heavenward and my roots deep into my mother’s heart. Tonight I am owning who I am. I am turning from the voice that says, “Why do you believe that you have to have a larger than life kind of life? I am agreeing with my friend who said, “You came here to do just that!”  It is what I was born for and I am finally at the time where the energies are arriving to support it. And as I claim my beauty, the path is widened for others to claim theirs. It is time. 

Hawk Medicine Woman

Here is part of the walk that I took today. Aren’t the shadows beautiful! It has been a recent discovery, this lovely park that has a tremendous view of the city. You can see way out to the bay, watch the freighters moving their wares, marvel at the frenzy of buildings that make up the financial district, rejoice in the few spots of green that send out nature’s calls. I am so in need of the company of trees and rocks as the city’s constant energy surrounds me. This park is one of the best things that I have found. Golden Gate Park is amazing as is the ocean but I have to drive to both and there are days where I simply do not have the fortitude to engage in traffic. A walk is so much more in keeping with my being these days. The energies of this eclipse cycle seem to take so much…..with the dark descending so early it seems that the days melt into one another. Naps are essential times of deep communion with some part of myself. I feel as though I fall into a well so deep and it is not easy to come out. I honor all those who work in the day to day….I truly have no idea how you do it! I feel as though I am moving underwater, slow, slow. Lots of deep breaths and staring into space where time disappears. 

Can you see the freighters way out there beyond the city? Mount Diablo rising past the waters, school children’s excited voices echoing up the hill. A beautiful hawk flew overhead as my son and I made our way back home. He flashed his underbelly for me to see his colorings as he floated so lazily on the currents, circling over me. Sighting a hawk has always felt like a gift to me. I love them so. Ha…..this just led me to read about hawks as a power animal or totem. I knew them to be messengers and connectors to inner wisdom. But I clicked on a description of a hawk medicine person and it so fit me! I am a vision keeper and it went on to describe some of the challenges that I have faced from others:Hawk medicine people like many who carry strong predator totems may be shunned by others who sense and fear their inner power. Others may sense that this is a person who can see straight through them and as many folks think in terms of judging things as being good or bad, they are afraid that the Hawk person will see who they “really” are and so they strike first in an attempt to keep the Hawk person at bay. This resonated with me. It was illuminating to read more of the article:  Many of the messages Hawk may bring are about freeing yourself of thoughts and beliefs that are limiting your ability to soar above your life and gain a greater perspective….Hawks need to stay focused on Spirit as the true messenger and that they are the Hollow Bones for the energy to flow through. 

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So I gained a new perspective as I had never thought in terms of carrying an animal’s medicine but I am owning that right now! I am a hawk medicine woman! I surely see that image each day as the hollow bones for the Creator to flow through and play upon. Love when we are gifted with this kind of synchronicity! 

I read an article today that resonated also for this eclipse cycle we are in. Brenda Hoffman does a great job of illuminating how you are not what is expected of you…..not by your family, your friends, your boss. She encourages us to return to our toddler days of truly expressing ourselves. The time of duty is fast passing. Being a duty girl, myself, I know how ingrained this can be. Holidays bring up so much of this in the family circle: doing what is expected rather than what fills you with joy. I believe that more folks are opting out of these limiting patterns this Christmas than ever before. With the Occupy Wallstreet movements, people are rethinking being pawns for the corporations with mindless spending in the name of love. I am hearing from friends who are opting out of the traditional family time that has become a duty and not a joy. We are called to honor ourselves by being with those who uplift us and allow us to be who we are at present rather than holding a mold from times past that we are meant to fill. Break the mold, step away from toxic relationships and empty spending and create what brings you joy. I have no idea what my Christmas celebrations will be but I know that the music, the candlelight, good food and companions of the heart top my list. I do not know how that will come together as my companions are scattered far about but even if I am on my own, I know that I can find it in my heart with no props at all.